Comp finally over.. 6th.. lost so badly for the first time. cant help but get so confused in class. watching the teacher rambling non-stop. So lost, so desperate, feeling so much to be non-existent. what in the world happened..a 6th position..rvsj will never be sitting down or standing for nothing during comp. disappointed the officers...so sorry.. that 4-leaf clover didnt have any effect on the four of us. fine..lost. whatever prestige, whatever glory, all hidden yesterday.
I guess this matter isn't taking too much weight on my mind anymore..but.. i'll still say.. whatever happened, i don't know. but i sense a very significant change in your attitude towards me. maybe something set you thinking, affected you, or changed you somehow, we don't talk (i have no mood anyway) when we meet, i don't even throw you a glance. ='( living a life that revolved way too much around you just isnt right..
When you're way up, the next thing you know, you are down;
when you're way down, at least you can predict the next thing to be just as bad;
so which is the easier way out?
posted @ 8:48 pm
