this day marks the end of our "intensive training". tmr will be my very very very last comp. for sure. i must sae my involvement in this comp rly caught me by surprise.. lost so much time here and there, training, planning training, and then more trainings. shifted my main focus onto sj, which only brought me more commitments. so darn disoriented in class, hecked the lessons throughout these 2 weeks since hols ended. bits and pieces of my life simply shifted here and there like in a mozaic while i looked from afar, no 'reset' icon to click on.
tt's the negative side of joining this comp.
but at least there are learning points to learn. we have been conveying the message that studies are secondary. "though studies are important, but..", "can cope one.." all these are just cover-ups, though i don't deny they are also true to some extent. but whether one is able to manage or not differs nevertheless from individuals to individuals. like me..i rly cant cope tt well. so much unfairness i feel but cannt express. and so i wunt. it takes one to rly experience something to feel the same thing as the other. One thing the juniors simply dun seem to see is tt prior to our studies, we have our job to do. just because you all want to safeguard that edge you have over others in academics, or prevent your lowly position in class from worsening, you all are giving us more problems tt cannt be solved unless we use the harsh method on you all. what can we do? have you thought about it? do you care? in the end all get unhappy.
well...good luck to my juniors. they'll need lots of passion and determination when handling the same problem. its just a matter of time. once they give up, tt's the end. rvsj will need new officers to rebuild and refurbish, and then start from scratch. tt'll of course, be the ultimate measure.
