This year's been pretty..eventful.. i must say, mostly bad things that shaped me up the way i am now, that made me..perhaps a little bit more reticent. Heartbreak, failure, self-consciousness, actions that conflicted my will, all stirred into the year like an olla podrida. 16 wasn't sweet, but..more of..an emotional..puberty final stage dash or something like that. Just looking back..i grew and learned more of my textbooks, others and myself, just like any other years, but this year i think i went through some parts of the mill. I saw what possibilities lay in front, stuff ten times worse than excrement of yesteryear, and learned that good things happened in heaven, which i cant reach. I'm a pampered child. I solve things the American way, which is the brainless way for goodness sake.
Anyway..perhaps i'll be going to Africa during the June hols next year. It's always good to start small, and so i shall render my service in an orphanage. Not everything needs to be disclosed. My new year resolution isn't anything much, just to adapt with the new self i discover. Three facts to internalize: I'm no saint. I'm liable to failure. I'm just like everyone else.
Perhaps if i touch each and every heart i can, and go a thousand miles to reach each and every soul, i find a new perspective. But i know, some part of me just won't be satisfied.
